Friday, April 17, 2009

New Blog Title Photo

I love this photo!
It's from our apartment complex, March 2009. Two different lovely pink tree flowers blooming, with a strong dark pine tree behind, on a rainy spring day! There's an album of beautiful spring flower photos I took this day, on Facebook, please check it out, but this is my favourite.

The Future!

I think it's in the 20's again today! Sooooooooo sunny and really beautiful flowers EVERYWHERE. I think today, in Korea, is almost the ideal summer day in Canada (you might want it warmer if you were swimming, but that's all). Which is partly to say, in YOUR summer back home, we will be experiencing another set of weather (super humid/rainy).
But today is GREAT! Don't have to turn on the a/c, but, the clothes are drying on the balcony in just a few hours!

Time is speeding by. Last night Ben and I were talking about things we were looking forward to in Canada--- presuming we will be in Kingston: lots of time with family, restaurants we're looking forward to (Lone Star topped the list for Ben, though I love their free nachos!, Greco's, some little place by the market with great bread and balsamic dip, the mostly Japanese Korean restaurant I like, Indian food!), parks, the market, the lakeshore... spending more than 30 mins. together every day when Ben's working a normal 9-5 again... Family babysitting the boys.... more family babysitting the boys.... still more family babysitting the boys (hey, we've got a LOT of Ben & Kim relationship time to catch up on!).

It's amazing how little direction we still feel about our future. It sure seems like in so many ways I should become a teacher/go to Teacher's College (after my year at home when we get back, hopefully, hopefully!!!), but I just do NOT see myself as a full-time career teacher in Canada. I LOVE teaching here, LOVE IT, so why not...? Sometimes I feel better about it if I really focus on my desire to adopt, and think about that as a ministry, but otherwise teaching at some generic public/high school in Canada seems a little... flat? Lacking *special*-ness? Lacking some degree of meaningfulness?. (OF COURSE I do not in ANY way think teaching is meaningless. It is very very important. It just doesn't seem to have the right meaning for me yet...).

And we're leaning a little back to feeling a bit uncertain about buying a house.

Anyway, it's ok. I hope it's not too difficult for our loved ones that we can't say what we're doing long term!!
We don't know what's ahead, but I am looking forward to it! God has taken such amazing care of us, we are so blessed, and I just feel like God's got a great plan, a GREAT one that will be so awesome for our little family!

Stay tuned!

PS-- Ben got in some basketball this week and is up for trying to do it regularly again. His ankle's a bit tender, but it's great for him to get into it again.

March 13, 2009, View from the school, and, things I will miss...

We had a heavy rainfall last night and all morning. I’m sure there will a whole season of this but it was the first after a winter with only four snowfalls in our city.
After my last class—a truly enjoyable one, full of sincere effort from some of the most endearing, happy boys—I stood out on the balcony of our new English class room. I was thinking about how much I love teaching at this school, and how hard it is to imagine that I could enjoy another group of students, teaching any other material, more than this. I was thinking about how I could stuff them in my suitcase, and just teach the same job, but at home in Canada! Which led me to think about how I wish I could take the mountains I was looking at home with me, too.

After the rains the clouds are heavy, still quickly moving, many different shades of blue, grey and even a dusty yellow (probably the Yellow Dust blowing in from Manchurian China) and formed in all kinds of shapes and depths. They are sunk low onto the mountain tops. When they are this low on our small mountains, it’s easy and exciting to imagine that if you could just find a tall enough building you could lean out a window and be in a cloud yourself. Or perhaps that if they somehow sunk just a little lower, you would be crushed by them right where you are.
To the northwest, dense, pure white fast moving mist is rushing up the mountain faces in Mureung Valley where water comes together in rushing torrents as it collects down the mountain faces. I imagine the Falls in the Valley are thundering today, a sight I have yet to see.

Under the clouds, the mountains have turned a slate grey blue instead of their wintry browns and dark greens. In front of me, there are a few small fields both tilled and freshly planted for spring, and also those still dressed in their dry, worn, yellow browns of last years’ leftover grasses and stalks.

In between is what most would call an ugly scene of construction, industrial bridges, factories, warehouses, and a the beginnings of the commercial harbour. But it seemed to fit in that at least it was honest. People doing honest hard work that is what it is, as opposed to the expanses of overly large, empty houses I know exist in some places back home, which are not the beautiful perfect buildings they try so hard to pretend to be.

I wished Ben was standing on the balcony with me to see this quiet scene together. I wished he could come teach with me here next year so we could stay one more year! But I know we will be very happy at home, and I am excited about that too. I will just miss my “boys” and the mountains.